Sunday, September 8, 2013

happy place

For as much as I cried the days before I left Madison, I feel really content in this new crazy life. 

School is (really really) hard but it's rewarding too. Everything we learn now has a purpose - we have to know this information for life, not just for a test. Although I feel so dumb all the time, I like being able to use my brain again, even if I use it to the point of wanting it to shut off at night instead of dreaming about heart development. 

I love my girlfriends here. My roommate is better than I could have ever anticipated, our closest friends live 40 feet away from us, and I like being around my lab partners so much that I'm willing to go be in a room with just them and 20 dead bodies all by ourselves for hours at a time. I forgot how much I really needed that feeling of having people.

I even like the dress code (most days). Online shopping instead of in store shopping means I get a present in the mail every once in a while. I just found the ring I've been looking for for months, and it's currently in it's pretty box on the way to me. It's like Christmas whenever I get the mail ;)

Of course, there are shitty things about all this. Chris has been on the complete opposite side of the country from me doing away rotations - I'm not really sure when we'll be able to see each other next. My family went on an awesome vacation that included the first wedding in my family since my parents got married 26 years ago, and I couldn't go. I don't get to be around for my sister's last year of high school. I don't have as much time anymore to do all the things I want to do (mostly I just want to binge-watch Scandal). I feel there are never enough hours in the day. My back hurts from the uncomfortable chairs in the lecture hall. 

But overall, life is good. 

Blouse: J.Crew Factory [exact]
Pants: The Limited [exact]
Necklace: J.Crew Factory [exact]
Watch: c/o Daniel Wellington
Shoes: Tory Burch [exact]